a question of faith...


How long, how long, will I slide into the abyss that is myself?

God knows how much I try to make sense of this life by putting it in a perspective that is beyond me. But every time I do so I miserably fail. It must be a matter of will power, something that I sadly do not have an ample supply of. For someone who holds fast to a truth claim like faith in a loving God, I am one who always treads that thin line between belief and unbelief. In faith I wrestle with doubt. In faith I fall prey to the apparent certainty of my understanding. In faith struggle to climb out of the pitch-dark well that is myself...