despondence

 

I just got sick and I'm doing my best to isolate myself.

But I've already been living in isolation long before the pandemic lockdown.

The past few years have been my loneliest

And the pandemic, the omnipresence of social deterioration, and protractedness of it all

Just seems so overwhelming.

I can’t smile.

I’m numbed by cold inside and out.

I constantly feel alone in a world full of people

Cold and unfeeling

In a cold unfeeling world.